I've had a lot of different jobs, and been involved with a lot of different organizations. The more different things I do, the more they are all the same. I'm so comfortable with doing something different, that novelty is no longer novel.
There are so many things to learn in every direction, that a dilettante such as myself will never be an expert in anything. You don't see any PhDs after my name. I'm not a ballerina or an olympic athlete and my name isn't listed in the Guinness Book. I never even picked an undergrad major. The people who go on ever deeper into a specialty push up against boundaries I will never see.
I've had eight or nine different lovers in my lifetime. The most painful love to lose was the first one. More recent loves have left my life with a lot less ill will and misery. But is it a good thing to have lost a lover so many times that I've learned to move on so calmly? What kind of skill is that to have? What would it have been like to have loved the same person my whole life?
People who do one thing are not like people who do many things. Not to choose, is also a choice. I'm not making a value judgement here, just noting something curious. Singleness of focus might feel better or worse than casting my net widely, but how would I know? I don't even wish it had been different. I just wonder what it would have been like to be different.
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There are so many things to learn in every direction, that a dilettante such as myself will never be an expert in anything. You don't see any PhDs after my name. I'm not a ballerina or an olympic athlete and my name isn't listed in the Guinness Book. I never even picked an undergrad major. The people who go on ever deeper into a specialty push up against boundaries I will never see.
I've had eight or nine different lovers in my lifetime. The most painful love to lose was the first one. More recent loves have left my life with a lot less ill will and misery. But is it a good thing to have lost a lover so many times that I've learned to move on so calmly? What kind of skill is that to have? What would it have been like to have loved the same person my whole life?
People who do one thing are not like people who do many things. Not to choose, is also a choice. I'm not making a value judgement here, just noting something curious. Singleness of focus might feel better or worse than casting my net widely, but how would I know? I don't even wish it had been different. I just wonder what it would have been like to be different.