...and that time was around this time. He is a depression-sufferer (specifically SAD, where late spring-early summer is his season). He's not going to be rational and say, "Oh what will my fans and friends think?" He's going to say, "OMG MAKE THE PAIN AND THE HURT GO AWAY!" He's resisted the impulse far more than he's given in, but that makes it all the more...dramatic...when he does give in.